No More Doughnuts
It’s been a while since my last entry. I’ve found it very difficult to write something new - probably because of the nature and tenor of what I wrote last. It just didn’t seem right to jump from such a heartfelt composition to some mundane narration given that in the interregnum, the relationship ended.
It bothered me, the thought of just up and writing about my everyday experiences without even resolving, for the lack of a better term, the question of how someone could write about doughnuts in that manner and then leave the very recipient thereof.
But then, it bothered me even more the thought of not writing at all. I was never comfortable with inaction. I always found comfort in purposeful motion. And by no means was I going to delete the entry.
Hence this resolution -
Pia deserves all the effort her loved ones can give her to make her feel special, all the happiness she can squeeze out of the world and every bit of sugary sweetness life (and doughnuts) can offer.
Just not from me, it seems.
I’m sorry -
And thank you -
For everything.
Thank you for always putting me at the front of your line for six years.
October 14th, 2007 at 7:30 pm
i don’t usually reply to your blogs but i guess this is an exception. funny, i only talked to you a couple of hours ago but
i guess it just felt pilit. i guess because I was trying to keep things cheery even though the mood was a bit somber.
anyway, i made it no secret to anyone
that this breakup has been incredibly difficult for me.
but it’s very hard to have ill feelings towards someone who still thinks the world of you. especially someone who you cared about
very deeply for 6 years.
anyway, thanks for the kind words. the title made me incredibly sad, but given how rough these past few weeks have been, it was also oddly comforting.
i can’t pretend things can be smooth sailing from here on. i think closure when it comes to these things takes time. that’s why i’ve decided to gradually ease
myself into being friends with you instead of trying to be all gung-ho about it like i was when we first broke up.
but i hope you know that whatever happens i wish you well too.
and i’ll always be rooting for you (albeit silently this time around).
Thanks and I’m sorry for everything.